"My Karmic Twenty Five- Womanifestation Destiny"

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Spending my 25th birthday alone made me reflect on my series of failed potential relationships. I cried thinking to myself, I should not have to spend my birthday alone. No flowers, balloons, cake, or champagne. No one to share my special moments. I felt resentful towards all the men who disappointed me in the past. I realized I have a type. For the past seven years, I have been settling for nice, extroverted guys who make me laugh. Apparently, the nice- extroverted guys who make me laugh are around for a good time and not a long time.

The past seven years has been filled with highs and lows with a drug called men. I’ve been reflecting, maybe my past potential relationships have been a karmic reaction. Contrary to popular belief, Karma is not the energy of revenge. Karma initial purpose is to be an ongoing cycle of internal teaching and guidance through this spiritual life journey.

My 25th birthday became my own Karma. I decided to drastically change my type and myself. No, i’m not opting to date assholes at first sight. However, I am opting to date someone that will grow on me. A man who has to build up the nerve to talk to me, instead of a man who sees me as his conquest. Turning 25, constitutes change and maturity. Most women who continue to fall for those types miss out on love, marriage, and having children. I do not want to be one of those women who develops OCPD and desire to compete to feel complete by a man who is committed to being complicated.

People say “ Do not change yourself.” However, I believe changing yourself for the better is the only true way to change your karmic patterns. Karma does not come into our lives so we can continue to feel disappointment. Karma is designed to shake us to the core of change. My Karmic twenty-five is a category seven earthquake. Seven is the strongest earthquake level. Seven years of karmic damage has led me to no choice, but to pursue Womanifestation Destiny.



Alicia Smith